Each of those things that comes up are impediments to the Kingdom, the ability you have to reflect the Kingdom of God to everyone around you - to tell them in actions rather than words how special and joy-filled it can be. Be still enough that you can hear the voice of God.
In the meantime, the activity for the week is something you can start on today: Who has been a channel of God’s grace for you? In conversation or over email this week, reach out to five people to find out how they came to know God’s love. How does the Good News shape the way they live? Reflect on how you are inspired by their witness and examples. There's a video at the link, along with a .pdf, and a sample of the exercise for you to explore.